hello,
I don’t know how else to say this — I was ready to end my life.
The weight of insecurity, uncertainty, and silence had built up for so long that I truly believed that my family would be better without me. I had it all planned out. The moment was heavy. Dark. I was alone… or so I thought.
But God intervened.
Right before I could go through with it, my daughter walked into the room — wide-eyed and full of love — and looked straight at me. She said, “Mommy, I love you.”
That broke me. Or maybe it saved me. Either way, I held her like I never had before. She had no idea what she walked in on. But I know God sent her.
The next day, I felt pulled — literally pulled — to attend a online prayer meeting I didn't want to attend because i felt unworthy to feel the presence of God. And the message?
It was called “Two Times Mine (Twice Mine).”
The pastor said, “When you know whose you are you know where to go." I thought to myself, "You may be tired of life, but God isn’t tired of you.”
And then he quoted Isaiah 43: 1-2:
“But now, this is what the Lord says--- he who created you…”
I couldn’t hold back my tears. It was like God was speaking directly to me. My body started shivering, I started feeling very hot and half way through the meeting I felt a weight being lifted off me.
Since that day, I’ve filled my space with the Word — writing letters to God, sticky notes, devotionals, and now, a Scripture Jar I keep by my bed. Every scroll I pull reminds me that my life is still valuable. That I’m not forgotten. That I’m not alone. That I still have a purpose.
The Holy Spirit,Jesus, the Word, and the love of my daughters and husband saved me.
And now, I live to help others see the light I almost gave up on.
— Anonymous, but Alive.
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